It's been a bit since I posted here....thought I'd "pop" in...
Things are going OK. I finally feel like I'm getting the hang of my job, which is super-helpful but also super-stressful. I'm not sure how I'm going to do it all, but I seriously can't even think about being sick while I'm working, as there are a gazillion things to do.
Maybe all of this, in the grand scheme of things, is what keeps me going. I have a lot of people asking me how I manage to work and have this disease, as I've mentioned several times, and I don't have a great answer. I just know that I actually enjoy working. And, quite honestly, am so worried about things falling apart if I quit "moving forward" that I never contemplate it. For as long as I'm able, I'll keep pushing (with breaks every now and then).
The itchy skin isn't getting any better. DRIVING. ME. BATTY.
Can't get my INR stabilized. I swear they probably don't think I'm taking my medicine, but I am. My nutritional intake has been ALL OVER THE PLACE lately. I'm nauseous a lot of the time, and now I've got this moral complex about eating meat so I don't. I'm pretty sure I'm not getting enough, nutritionally, but I'm trying my best. A steak never looked like a cow before, but now that's all I see. And meat just doesn't taste like meat. It's either my subconscious trying to help me figure out this moral dilemma I feel, or CKD. I read a little about the stages of CKD, as someone on the Facebook group was asking. I'm right between Stage 3 and 4, and here are some of the common symptoms (courtesy of Davita.com):
Here's a link to more about Stage 4 Kidney Disease. Read at your own risk :)
Other than that, life is chugging along. Joacim is leaving for Sweden tomorrow, which terrifies me because I'm afraid I'll get sick and not be able to properly care for Izzy. That and she's just plain exhausting right now. NEVER. STOPS. TALKING. She and I are planning on making the 11 hour drive back to Indiana over Thanksgiving to see the fam. This is a drive I'm DREADING, but it'll be good to see family and friends again. At least Izzy will keep me awake with her singing :)
And I'm putting my Christmas tree up this weekend. Yes, I'm one of those. I have a fake tree, and I'm happy about it....this way, I get to enjoy it longer (which is totally worth it considering the effort you put in to decorating for Christmas, don't you think?).
Okay, gotta go. Rosie's at the door, growling at a shadow :) Take care!
I gotta be honest....I don't feel much like posting here lately. So many times I start writing the post kind of "in my head"...
It's been a long time since I posted here....I'm not going to even try to catch everyone up, so let's just dive in, ok? Anyo...
I met with the vascular surgeon yesterday and things are moving quickly. I've got a revision surgery scheduled for this Friday morning....