Monday, January 14, 2013

Blahhhhhhhhhhhh

That's the only word to describe how I feel.  Oh, and jiggly....yes, feeling VERY jiggly.

This is frustrating.  Beyond frustrating.  To have gotten down to my goal weight, and then, within a couple of weeks to be right back where I hate to be is the most aggravating thing.  Sure, food tastes better, so I eat more, and I expected to gain a little weight back.  But this is ridiculous.

But looking at my ankles today as I was doing yoga (yep, got it 45 minutes!) I saw the swelling on my ankles, and the roundness of my belly is back, indicating severe water retention.  This is no surprise, and partially my fault as I've been binging like crazy on salty things.

My appetite/cravings are powerful right now.  It's not like I'm bored.  I'm probably not getting enough sleep which could account for some of it, but I almost ALWAYS feel that hungry feeling in my stomach, and it's almost ALWAYS growling at me.

UGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHH!

This is the way it is, I know, but I'll never stop bitching about it.  I just met with a new PCP whom I really liked, so that's great.  I'm also getting in to see Dr. Lee at Minnesota Kidney Specialists in March, so that's something to look forward to.  My hope with them is not for another form of oral/injectable treatment, but a 1 and 5 year plan.  I NEED to know what the future might look like for me and my family.  It's of paramount importance for my sanity, and as m y sanity gets challenged, so does my health.

I feel like I need some sort of detox diet or something...just to clean me out and start over, but it's not as simple as looking up something and trying it out.  I wish it were because I would, but I'd fear doing more harm to my kidneys without enough knowledge, so next on my list is a renal nutritionist.

Can anyone in the Minnesota area recommend one?

1 comment:

  1. I like the idea of a 1-5 year plan - that would provide you with so much help in the short AND long run. We all know that plans can change, but to have something to look to - that would be awesome.

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